current music: Jill Scott- Hate on Me
I'm scared. I'm scared of growing up. I'll fail.
I'm scared. I'm scared of growing up. I'll fail.
We're done and broken up. He was my world, when he was there. He still is. Every night I lay in my bed, I still feel him between my arms. The way we were. The way is was meant to be. But, he's long gone without a lasting thought. If I can't be with him, I don't want to be with anyone.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuckedy fuck fuck. I am sick and tired of getting shat on. I didn't do anything but want to be in the cast of your retarded, poorly casted, going to flop, piece of shit musical. The only reason I remain in this P.O.S. is because there is an opprotunity for me to get fucked. And that is starting to go to Hell.
I like boys and musicals and drugs. =-)
West Side Story+Sobriety+Chastity= insanity!
I can feel my life beginning to spin out of order...and I like it.
New Quote to live by:
"My worst weakness is my favorite flaw."
Drinking drunk and snorting a percocet, is the way life is meant to be lived.
-- the best part about it, I was on the beach.
I love college boys/parties.
28. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot what would you do?
Well, it was Taylor so...If he got shot, I'd get shot too coz we're mostly hanging out together. And that would suck getting shot.
Rude N Ignant: May I.....
Rude N Ignant: ????
LooksWillHurt: You're going to anyway.
Rude N Ignant: You're right
Rude N Ignant: First.... In my blog, I in no way disrespected you, so that Paris Hilton comment was rude.
Rude N Ignant: Let me finish
Rude N Ignant: Second, you crying and not wanting to hear my attitude is totally permissable, I understand that, the reason being why I apologized
Rude N Ignant: You said (quote)
Rude N Ignant: JASON
Rude N Ignant: DON'T
Rude N Ignant: And I stopped and I was then going to ask you if you we're going to be alright
Rude N Ignant: and so forth
Rude N Ignant: I had not given you attitude at that point, I had stated a fact
Rude N Ignant: Stated at the wrong time, but fact nonetheless
Rude N Ignant: I told ten people this story, and the first thing out of all their mouths was "That away message has nothing to do with that"
Rude N Ignant: So i'm not alon on this thought
Rude N Ignant: but that's not the point
Rude N Ignant: You then started typing up the away message "How about this. Don't Talk to me."
Rude N Ignant: So yeah, you planned to put that up. Or else you wouldn't have typed it
Rude N Ignant: So I did exactly that
Rude N Ignant: I didn't talk to you
Rude N Ignant: So again, I guess I gave you attitude on Tuesday?
Rude N Ignant: please answer.....
LooksWillHurt: Ring a bell?
LooksWillHurt: Just because I stated don't talk to me, doesn't mean manners aren't necessary.
Rude N Ignant: No. When I came outside, I specifically said, "Can I have my laptop please"
Rude N Ignant: I know I said that because I remember thinkinng, I don't want him to think I'm giving him attitude
Rude N Ignant: So I know I said please.
LooksWillHurt: I must have missed it.
Rude N Ignant: You may not have heard me, but I said it
Rude N Ignant: And as far as being a "parent".....
Rude N Ignant: Your right
Rude N Ignant: Your decisions are your own.
Rude N Ignant: But the fact is, it's a bad one regardless....
Rude N Ignant: dropping out of school
Rude N Ignant: unless you have the intention to go back
Rude N Ignant: And that's not me just saying that Tayl;or
Rude N Ignant: ALL your friends think that's a bad move.
Rude N Ignant: I didn't pressure to stay in school did I?
LooksWillHurt: To be honest, if you did, I would've blocked it out to begin with.
Rude N Ignant: that's not what I asked you
Rude N Ignant: Did I pressure you?
LooksWillHurt: Well, that was my answer.
LooksWillHurt: So, take it.
Rude N Ignant: See your giving me attitude right now.
LooksWillHurt: Yes. I am.
Rude N Ignant: Okay well than that's being childish. But whatever.
Rude N Ignant: Did I pressure you to get a job?
Rude N Ignant: Or did I just check up on you?
Rude N Ignant: I never said that you HAVE to get a job
LooksWillHurt: Whatever. If you did, you did. If you didn't, you didn't.
Rude N Ignant: no Taylor. Why are you being stubborn? Do you want to talk about this another time, cuz i don't want to lose as a friend over something like this
Rude N Ignant: Like I said. I understand I hurt you and I'm sorry.
Rude N Ignant: I'm not begging you to be my friend still cuz if this is what you want, like I said I'll still sleep at night
Rude N Ignant: Like Micky said. This is something so minor, it's not worth it.
LooksWillHurt: If you'll still sleep, why bother to beg?
Rude N Ignant: Because I value you my friends. And out of respect for our mutual friends so they don't have to feel awkward
Rude N Ignant: when we're together in the same room
Rude N Ignant: ???
LooksWillHurt: You hurt me. Alot. I'm tired of people doing that.
LooksWillHurt: That's why I'm acting this way.
LooksWillHurt: Overtly-dramatic, outrageous, whatever it might be.
LooksWillHurt: I digress, what kind of comment was that to make after me telling you what happened?
LooksWillHurt: A comment, in my opinion, that was meant to hurt me.
LooksWillHurt: And as stated in my blog, my opinion is the only one that matters to me.
LooksWillHurt: I'm done.
LooksWillHurt: There's nothing else I have to say.
Rude N Ignant: Well, like I said. I aree the comment was uncalled for. I was wrong. I apologize. It was not meant to hurt you, although it did. I don't have a problem with the way you reacted, I have a problem with the things you did, IE telling people it's my fault blah blah blah. You didn't have to bring other people into this. You could come to me and said your problem to my face. I would have listened. But for some reason you have a problem doing that.
Rude N Ignant: So again, if you really don't want to be my friend over this, that's fine Taylor, but in my defense, you KNOW I have much better qualities than my shitty attitude.
Rude N Ignant: And it would be a shame to throw away ANY friendship over this.
LooksWillHurt: It's a damn shame, isn't it?
Rude N Ignant: Okay.
LooksWillHurt: So, can I go eat my dinner or is there anything else?
Rude N Ignant: Well the last thing I have to say is.....
Auto response from Rude N Ignant: Painting....UGH!
Hit it up
Rude N Ignant: Since you no longer are my friend. Don't let me hear that my name came out your mouth in a disrespectful way. That's not attitude or a threat, that's just out of respect for the fact that i won't do it to you.
Rude N Ignant: OKay?
I love that child more than I love myself.
You're lucky the cops got a hold of you.